I had a really hard time sleeping last night. I could not shut my mind off. Disappointment, sadness, confusion, but yet hope and desire flooded my thoughts. A movie of the mistakes of my adult life kept playing in my mind. It went on for hours. You know the type. During the commercial breaks of your favorite television show a high budget movie with A-list actors advertises. You are interested and you anticipate the day it will be in theatres. The day finally arrives, you go to your local theatre, popcorn and coke in hand, you find a seat and wait anxiously for the movie to start. It begins and the story line seems to drag, it's hard to follow because the scenes keep changing from present day activities to activities in the past. The typical movie lasts about ninety minutes but over two hours have passed and the end seems nowhere in sight. You are relieved when it's finally over and walk out with mixed reviews. Well.....that's exactly what happened to me last night. I've had mixed emotions all morning about my movie.
For those of you that know me well know that I love my "porch time." Sitting in my rocking chair on the back porch this morning, I just started praying....out loud might I add. Thankfully my back yard is woods....I'm sure if my neighbors heard me they would have called the men in white jackets to come and get me. When I pray, I talk to God as if I were talking to my best friend. After all...He is. (Proverbs 18:24 - A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. NIV) Anyway, I was asking for understanding, truth, and direction. I poured my heart out about how I feel empty and broken, what I want, what I feel like I need, how low I feel, and how vulnerable I feel. I confessed that I don't deserve His grace, mercy, love, and restoration. While praying the words of the song, "He Didn't Throw The Clay Away" came pouring out of my heart and mouth. I haven't heard that song in years. Tears began to roll down my cheeks and all I could do was thank Him. He should be done with me. I should be placed on a shelf never to be used by Him again.....but thankfully that is NOT His plan. He uses messed up people. He is a God of second, third, fourth, and on and on chances. I have no clue what God has in store for my life but I do know He didn't throw THIS clay away!!!
Empty and Broken, I came Back to Him
A Vessel Unworthy, so scarred from Sin.
But He did not Despair… He Started over again
And I Bless the Day, HE didn’t Throw the Clay Away.
A Vessel Unworthy, so scarred from Sin.
But He did not Despair… He Started over again
And I Bless the Day, HE didn’t Throw the Clay Away.
Over and Over, He Molds Me and Makes Me,
Into His likeness, He fashions the clay.
A vessel of Honor, I Am today,
All because Jesus Didn’t Throw The Clay Away.
Into His likeness, He fashions the clay.
A vessel of Honor, I Am today,
All because Jesus Didn’t Throw The Clay Away.
He is the Potter… I am the Clay
And Molded in His Image, HE wants me to Stay.
Oh, but when I Stumble…
When I Fall… When My Vessel Breaks,
He just Picks up those Pieces,
He does not Throw the Clay Away…
And Molded in His Image, HE wants me to Stay.
Oh, but when I Stumble…
When I Fall… When My Vessel Breaks,
He just Picks up those Pieces,
He does not Throw the Clay Away…
Over and Over, He Molds Me and Makes Me,
Into His Likeness, He Fashions the Clay.
A Vessel of Honor, I Am Today,
All Because Jesus Didn’t Throw The Clay Away.
A Vessel of Honor, I Am Today,
Into His Likeness, He Fashions the Clay.
A Vessel of Honor, I Am Today,
All Because Jesus Didn’t Throw The Clay Away.
A Vessel of Honor, I Am Today,
It’s all because Jesus didn’t throw the clay away.
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